Some times I don't understand why I feel so vulnerable. Some times I feel my heart wanting cry and I curse it. Some times I just want to scream to the top of my lungs...but now most of the time I find myself searching for love. I walk around straight faced not seeming to give a care in the world about who I hurt or offend. That face is there only so that I don't get hurt. I try to avoid my feelings, my emotions, my deepest thoughts. They are overwhelming at times and reveal so much about me to myself. Yet I can't figure out why I seem to hide away from me. So who am I. Am I really existing. If nobody ever sees that part of me do they really know me. Do I know me. How can I trust that this is me.